On Self-Filtering

I’ve never officially been diagnosed with Adult ADD, however, all the signs point to it. I fail to complete most projects. I have trouble focusing on one task at a time (I don’t want to talk about my hours of homework as a kid..) and sometimes, I fail to turn the filter on between my brain and my mouth, which has cost me several relationships and has impacted my work performance a time or two.

Admittedly, I’ve spent a lot of time on social media this week. Mostly, I’ve been reading. I’ve also been refraining from commenting on what I’ve seen most people say. What I’ve really been thinking and what I’ve been saying to some people are completely different things.

And so, without association to the actual topics I saw, here’s some of what I really thought, but filtered out.

“So, by a unique selfie you mean that this one was taken at 9am instead of your daily 7am mirror selfie of your cleavage?”

“Yes, I remember that day as well. That was the day you broke my heart and essentially told me that you no longer regarded me as someone who was as good of a friend as I was just a month prior. You told me that your new friends were more important to you. At least I’m still here for you, hell or high water.”

“So, when you say that you love your pets as though they were your children, does that apply to the other five animals you gave away or died shortly after adopting them?”

“It’s truly a wonder you’ve ever been laid, considering you’re still in the same living and employment situation you were in when we were 19.”

“Ahaha! Adam Lambert! THAT is who you look like!.. You know, all these years, I couldn’t pinpoint it!”

“Does he make fun of her for gaining weight like he did me all those years?”

“Maybe it was your blatant narcissism that caused him to leave you?”

“I’m not too sure how many other ways I can say ‘it costs thousands of dollars to move to another state’. I’ve done it minimally ten times. Trust me when I say I’m no stranger to this! It’s not like I can just pick up and leave”

And the one I really feel would have scored me the most points:

“Please look up the mental disorder ‘Stockhom Syndrome’. I seriously feel you can relate to it on a personal level, you delusional, verbally abusive bitch.”


About gespurr

Emily was born in Southwestern Louisiana and has moved over 20 times in her life through nine different states. Most of her life was spent in the Twin Cities of Minnesota, where she met her husband and had her only child. Both she and her husband are also only children. She graduated from Stillwater (MN) High School in 1992 and from the University of Wisconsin in 1997 with a BS in Journalism. Three years later, she met her husband, George, and they married in 2002. Their daughter, Kathryn, was born early in 2004. She relocated with her family back to Arkansas in 2005 after being away for 30 years. She currently works as a customer service representative for an insurance company and lives in North Little Rock. When not taking care of her daughter she is either cooking, working, cleaning house, sewing, gardening, knitting, crocheting hiking, traveling or spending time with her husband.

Posted on January 18, 2015, in Miscellaneous, Social and Technology and tagged , , . Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.

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